Carruth, a former wide receiver for the Carolina Panthers, penned a 15-page letter to Saundra Adams, the mother of Cherica Adams, expressing remorse for the hand he played in the death of the mother of his son, now 18 and combating a host of physical ailments.
Carruth was accused of hiring a gunman to kill Adams, who was seven months pregnant at the time of the shooting, in order to avoid paying child support. Adams' grandmother (and Cherica's mother), Saundra Adams, has cared for Chancellor, and has staunchly protested the mere thought of Carruth getting custody of his son.
Carruth complains that Adams has wrongly claimed that he's never apologized or taken responsibility.
Carrruth said he wants his son to be a part of his life, and that, after his release in October, he plans to go back to California to live a private life. "I'm apologizing for the impairment of my son", Carruth told WBTV.
Rae Carruth has spent the last 17 years in prison.
"I feel like if I did it in the open, it would put an end to the lies". Chancellor will be raised either by me or, after I'm gone, by someone else who loves him and who knows him.
Carruth was arrested in December 1999 after Adams died. Having had time to look back and ponder on how the events of that night unfolded, I want you to know that I take full responsibility for everything. "That being said, of course when that time comes, I would like to be in a position to be seriously considered as a viable option". He also thanked the 60-year-old for the "unconditional care, compassion, love and support" she had given his son, Chancellor Lee Adams.
Fowler's report also notes the response from Saundra Adams, mother of Cherica and grandmother and current guardian to Chancellor.
In an interview with WBTV regarding the letter, Carruth apologized for his role in Adams' death saying, "I'm apologizing for the loss of her daughter".
"I've forgiven Rae already, but to have any type of relationship with him there does have to be some repentance", Adams said. He can have some supervised visitation with his son - I am open to that.
Carruth spoke exclusively to WBTV's Sarah-Blake Morgan from behind bars, his first public comments since 2001. "His mother should be raising her son", Carruth said. "I could have done a better job of keeping Cherica and Chancellor out of harm's way, and it's something that will definitely weigh on me for the rest of my life". His mother would still be here and I wouldn't be where I'm at. "On the other side, there was a lot of untruths in what I heard because I've never received any correspondence from him".
"When I first got incarcerated I would ask myself how did this happen?" he said. "And the number one answer that I had was I didn't have a relationship with God", he said.
"And I know some people might smirk or laugh about that but I know now that I have a very real relationship with God and that's changed a lot of the ways that I see and view a lot of things".